Rethinking Aspergers

In 2012 Aspergers was dropped as a diagnosis category and is now considered part of the autism spectrum. This is wrong. I don't care if I have this disorder or not and it's called Autism Spectrum Disorder, I have don't think autistics are bad or anything. But, it's still wrong. Autistics tend to be average or below in intelligence, Aspies average or above in intelligence. There are two parts of the brain that are underdeveloped in Autistics and Aspies and they are opposite of each other. Autistics tend to not want to interact with people socially while Aspies may or may not want to depending on a variety of factors including how much they were teased, what kind of thinker they are, what they specialize in, etc... What they have in common or what we have in common is a failure to communicate. I can communicate with words, I am somewhat good at it. I can empathize even. What I am unable to do is communicate my empathy. I seriously do not know how to do that. Where someone might not know what to say when they learn a relative of a co worker has died and that is considered normal. I don't know what to say when someone has a bad hair day. It's extremely awkward for me. Most social interactions are. I prefer to avoid them now.

People on the spectrum are hypersensitive. I have problems with both certain kinds of light and certain sounds. I can't tolerate high pitched sounds they literally make me want to hurt something. Certain kinds of light are a problem too, blinking lights make me bonkers and give me a headache. I don't deal well with fluorescents, bright sunlight is also a problem. There is also that clumsiness. I have that in spades. I can trip on my own shadow, seriously I have literally, not figuratively done this. I feel unbalanced, but I can walk in a straight line, straight enough anyway.


It is a common perception that Aspies or people with Autistic Spectrum Disorder don't have empathy. But, now they are finding that Autistics have hypersensitive brains. That emotional events affect their brains more profoundly than so called neuro normals people. I think it ties in with the problems with light and sound and it fits in with why someone with it would want to withdraw from people. People are just to dang intense. I have found this to be true with me. A day alone is a relief from the drama that comes with neuro norms. And there is always drama, always.

I have had to deal with other people telling me that I am not concerned enough, that I am too tightly wound, that I am not nurturing, that I don't care enough, that I am not a team player. Now, I think I am not wrong for this and I am no longer going to try to adapt to the neuro norm world. F it, I get picked on all the time. I am told I have to I just have to be subjected to their emotional baggage. I just have to hold a hand or whatever. Nope, not no more. They can accept me on my terms or not. I don't care.

There are about 30 other kinds of problems I have, but don't recall at the moment. So, whether the name comes back or whether it's called Autism Spectrum Disorder, the problems remain the same.